I have come to realize recently that change is inevitable. Change itself is neither good nor bad it is what you make of it. Every situation you come in contact with will present you with a choice. It is now up to us to make the decision. Do you stick to the comfort zone or towards the unknown.
Over the last few months I have gone through many new changes. I am one who sticks to my comfort zone on most occasions. I know the situations and I know the outcomes, it is easy. However, I was not happy with the way things were going. So a new job opportunity presented itself and after 11.5 yrs of the same job I leave it to pursue the new adventure. Now completely out of my comfort zone I have no clue what is going on or where this path will take me, but I do know I am Happy. I am meeting new people and making new friends on the process. I am not going to say that had I stuck with my comfort zone I wouldn't be alright, life was fine and I was getting by. All I know is I am a much better person to be around b/c I am no longer stressed out. Ask my friends that know me best I am sure the can see the difference in my attitude towards life.
NOW on to the next big change that I am looking forward too. I am about to turn 28, yes I know that isnt old but I feel that way. I look around at my friends I graduated with, most are married and starting familys of their own. I want this!! I know there is someone out there for everyone, I believe I had found mine at one point but being too scared of change I let her get away. So now I am searching to see if I can find one who I dont compare to her but to whom I will want to compare others to. Most people find it strange that I would want a child but right now it is high on my list. I want to feel the love that only a father can have towards his child. The thought of this makes me smile. I know all of this will take time for me to find the perfect companion, and by perfect I mean perfect for me, not the world. I am optimistic that with the way life is changing for me I will find her soon, or have already found her and either or neither of us realize it yet. When the realization comes tht I have found the one I wish to spend my life with, I will truely be happy. until then I am going t o live my life the way I want. b/c If I do meet her I need her to see me for who I really am and not a front like some put out for others.
For those who read this I thank you for reading what I have to say. I will randomly post when I Have thought I need to get off my chest, or just when I feel like sharing some good news. Until I return I would like to leave you with one final thought.
"Live your life to make yourself happy. Do not try to please others and become someone you are not. If they don't like who you are when you are happy just leave them. Do they really need to be in your life if they are always against you?"
-BRIAN
